You’re better than that!
For some reason I’ve been put in situations where I have witnessed suicidal attempts. One was inside of a church, in a Bible study session. She had to be between 16-18years old. The other, was in my early 20’s. I was scrolling through Facebook; I came across an unusual status posted by a good friend of mine. While others who commented took it lightly. I decided to take a trip to her residence. Upon arrival, My intuition was on a high. I immediately instructed a neighbor of hers to kick down the door. Due to the respect for my friendship, I have to stop here.
Honestly, it was the response by people who proclaimed to love her that traumatized me. Still do to this day. People can be very cruel. I never gotten the chance to talk to her about it…but I know for sure it affected my perspective towards people.
We all know that the meaning of suicide is intentionally killing oneself. Of course, immediately we’ve probably stated we’d never consider taking ourselves out. Until…we experience rejection and abandonment.
I’ve thought about it numerous of times. But there’s one night I do remember. I was in my one bedroom apartment. Sitting on the floor playing with a .38 just hoping it goes off. I didn’t have the courage to just take myself out. At the time, I’d tell you it was over a guy. However, as I reflect I had serious rejection & abandonment issues and he was just the one to blame at the time. It wasn’t until I let him go that I realized I was involved in something toxic because I was looking for a void to be filled.
So what drives a person in wanting to commit suicide? I can’t speak for all! But 9/10 of the times is due to people are quick to judge what they don’t understand. You same ones who judge are the ones people look towards for acceptance. That’s where the rejection and the abandonment issues derive.
Please, if you’re reading this blog and you’re contemplating suicide. You are better than that! You’re not those word curses that were spoken over you. You’re not a failure, there’s still time to get up. You’re not a coward; you just understand it doesn’t take you to fight to get your point across. Furthermore, it’s not your fault that you’ve been molested or raped at a young age. You are NOT what society says about you. God says that you’re fearfully and wonderfully made. He also doesn’t make any mistakes.
If I don’t know nothing else, it’s ok to put aside your pride and ask for help. Everyone isn’t against you. That’s what you’re telling yourself as a defense mechanism. Acknowledge it, accept it, and then adjust!
You’re better than that!
“Now listen! Today I am giving you a choice between life and death, between prosperity and disaster. For I command you this day to love the Lord your God and to keep his commands, decrees, and regulations by walking in his ways. If you do this, you will live and multiply, and the Lord your God will bless you and the land you are about to enter and occupy.”