Who Am I? (Identity Crisis)
Have you ever been in a place where you feel that you have lost sense of your identity due to change, grief, lack of support etc? Yea, you’re not alone. Identity crisis is a period of uncertainty and confusion, in which a person’s sense of identity becomes insecure, typically due to a change in expected aims or role in society. Now when I read this definition, I began digging deeper. I can’t help you without helping myself. But I can help you while helping myself.
A few blogs ago, I mentioned my mom transitioning back in 2020. Since she has passed I haven’t been the same person. What I am realizing throughout my writing is I am struggling with my identity. This feeling of disconnect and confusion is the byproduct of her transitioning, and the people who I expected to support didn’t. Those who talked a good game didn’t even show up for the game. Confused at the thought of how much support was sown. Did I not do what I was supposed to do? Am I being too nice? I’m trying to move forward but it’s that void of knowing I’ll never see her again on this side,
I keep asking myself was I a good daughter to my mom. It is causing me to seek for who I am In Christ. Identity impacts who we are, what we are and how we live. Our identity, is how we define ourselves. Our values, our beliefs and personalities. The role we play in our society and families can also create awareness of who we are. If you’re familiar with the Embrace U family, one of the quotes frequently stated “how you do one thing is how you do all things.”
If I don’t know anything else, God uses me through my dance ministry. There’s no doubt in my mind, body or spirit. Because I know this, I am beginning to find myself becoming more aware of when my flesh is no longer in control. I am asking God to show me who I am in Him. I’ve been riding on the people pleasing wagon long enough. If I pay attention in one aspect of my life, then everything else has to fall in line.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
Matthew 6:33 NKJV