MY OWN HIGH
Over the last year, I’ve come to learn something important about myself! That is, I have a supply of my own dope-ness! For the majority of my life, I have always hidden in the shadows of others. I didn’t do it intentionally, but between me being an introvert and feeling misunderstood, it was just easier for me to do so. I felt as if I didn’t have that “it factor” like those I hid behind did. They were able to be a loud voice and walk into a room and own it. I just felt like everyone else had so much more to offer others than I did.
Even in hiding in the shadows of others, they tried to push me out front but I would always run! And I became comfortable with working in the background. I would question myself time and time again about what others saw in me or why others would think so highly of me, ME! I struggled with what I had to offer someone else. People would tell me how great I am at something or how great of help I would be to someone else. I would get called on to lead or head up something and I would decline but offer to be of help to whoever took the lead. I would often use the excuse of “that’s too much attention for me”. But in reality, I was so high off the supply of others that I didn’t even recognize my own supply! For so long I was ok with taking in secondhand smoke, not being the one directly being hit, but being affected from being around others who were high off of their own supply. I made myself shrink to fit in, where I was made to stand tall.
The light bulb turned on for me during my coaching sessions with my mentor coach. She asked me one question that had me stop and think, she asked me “Who told you that you weren’t enough?” She also helped me to see that those around me see how great I am, but I have to see that for myself as well! All it took was for that brief conversation to be had and it was like all the smoke cleared! I stood in the mirror and looked at myself, realizing that I have my own supply to pull from and give off. I had to sit down and realize just how dope I was and I say that humbly! God did a thing when He created me and there was nothing wrong with owning that!
Philippians 1:6- And I am convinced and sure of this very thing, that He Who began a good work in you will continue until the day of Jesus Christ [right up to the time of His return], developing [that good work] and perfecting and bringing it to full completion in you.
I now understand just how unique I am and that I am a powerhouse to be reckoned with. I too can walk in a room and command it! I too can lead and head up projects with the skills I have. I too have so many things that I could offer someone else! I can truly say that I am no longer hiding in the shadows of others, now I have learned greatly from those individuals! I stand boldly and confidently on my own with what God has put down on the inside of me. I have never felt so free to be me in my life, I am truly grateful for the shift! You too can be bold and confident in who you are, without making yourself small. You have a supply of your own to pull from and share with the world! God created you to be exactly who you are! You are dope and don’t you forget it! Own the room, own the project, and OWN YOU!