I Just Want to be Loved.
I want to feel it. Know it. Hear it. With NO strings attached! It seems as though when I find something close to that desired feeling, or so I think; disappointment arises. I’ve tried opening up, but then I’m being taken for granted. Preying off of my weaknesses which leads to being manipulated for their own benefit. I just wanna be loved! Love is patient. Love is kind, right? So why does it have to be so difficult to find the love for me? Love is also a sacrifice!
Let Auntie help you, I too once had this problem. I was in a relationship at the age of 15 until the age of 21 with the same individual. Let me tell you, it was indeed a roller coaster ride. I didn’t know how to love myself but expected for him to love me properly. Sleepless nights, depression, lost in my mind and heart. I kept telling myself, "this can’t be what love has to offer."
Nevertheless, that relationship ended completely after discovering a baby being on the way. It definitely wasn’t me who was carrying one. I knew at that moment God was pulling me out of a situation that wasn’t for me.
After several failed attempts to find that love. I decided to practice celibacy for one year . I became real with my truth. I was promiscuous and started to become the manipulator I despised. What we don’t face, we can’t fix.
Today, I am married. My husband and I have been together for four years; married three. Sacrifice! I understand the concept of Jesus dying on the cross for me. He sacrificed his life for you and I! What am I saying? Beloved, move out of the way and allow God to show you the true meaning of His love. You were created in His image; therefore begin to love thyself. You’ll then be able to share the love instead of looking for it in a person.