Embrace the Breaking.
Life is not easy, and I often tell people you must be built for it. If not, it will chew you up and spit you out very easily. Life is so unpredictable, and none of us know what is going to be thrown our way, and in what capacity we can manage it. I know over the past 17 years I have been faced with some of the hardest tragedies and life experiences, and it left me feeling completely broken. I remember praying and telling God that I had reached my breaking point and I did not know how much more I could take. While in my broken place, I felt myself not praying and spending time with God the way I should. I was too focused on what I was going through and the pain. I will keep it all the way real, I was angry with God. I had so many unanswered questions, and the main question was why. People who knew me would offer encouragement by saying “Hang in there, be strong, remember God gives the battles to his strongest soldier” I got so tired of hearing that, honestly, I did not want to be strong or chosen for any battle, I just wanted the pain to go away.
I was to a point of feeling like I had nothing left to give to myself or anyone around me. After time went by, and I had calmed down from being angry, I knew it was time for me to lie at his feet to get the true guidance that I needed to get healed from this place of brokenness. I remember praying one night and crying out to God as I received my answer to why. God sometimes allows things to happen for us to become a better version of ourselves. He knows that by allowing us to experience failure, pain, and tragedy, etc... We will grow stronger in our faith and become closer to him. I learned that my storms had an assignment attached to them, and they were not sent to break me, but for me to focus more on God, and the will he had for my life. God needed for me to walk in the authority that he had given me. I realized that somebody’s blessing was waiting for me to become whole and operate in who God called me to be.
Now I can embrace my breaking point because if it had not been for the breaking, I would not have experienced the blessings that came along with it. The blessing of being free and no longer allowing what you've been through to define where you’re going, is an amazing feeling. I am so grateful to be able to truly walk in my purpose. Remember that sometimes we must experience a breaking point so that God can do what he needs to do in our lives. I want to encourage you today that no matter how hard things may get, stay the course, and know there is truly a blessing in your breaking.
Coach Kayla Wallace